I dont think that is what my problem is. I really do hate being alone, but only because I like the company and I feel safe (mom always said...there is safety in numbers) but at the same time, if im always around people, does that make me codependant? I mean, I can function without anyone here. I really just prefer to not be alone.
Things happen when you are alone. Someone could come in and rob my place. It could catch on fire. I mean really, any number of things could happen. But I would rather have someone around to go through it with me. To help keep me sane.
I guess the real reason that this is even pertinent right now is because for the first time in a long time I am completely alone in my surroundings. There is no grandma right next door. There is no roommate one room over. It is only me and my little chillins. Essentially I feel vulnerable and I really do not like it.
Matt left today as well. and I am used to him always being around. Danny has been gone for some time now...and I miss him like crazy...but again, he is not around. My boyfriend, yea he lives down the road a little, but he just started working and he wont be around so much anymore either. Whats a girl to do at a time like this?
So here I am, little ol me in this big ol place...and I am alone.
But I think im going to be okay. I really hope I am going to be okay.
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