Filing Bankruptcy On Life

Well, I made it the 100 miles to Tucson. It was not easy, in fact it was fairly difficult; but I did make it here in one piece. I overheated twice, developed an oil leak, and as I pulled onto my new street, my breaks went completely out, as in, not able to stop my vehicle at all. To top it all off, the morning after my first night, my tire went flat. Life is so good.

On a more serious note, I got a lot of thinking done on the drive up here. I had keyword research epiphanies about how to improve my Squidoo lens', I wrote three new lenses in my brain. I even mapped out my plan of action for getting back on my feet financially, emotionally and mentally.

My first real day here was pretty productive. I unpacked a lot, and while doing so, I realized, that in the process of my move this time, I am essentially filing bankruptcy on my life. I packed everything up and sold what I didn't need, I consolidated and reorganized these items, and now during the unpacking stage, I am realizing just how truly I am starting over. I declared bankruptcy on my life, and its empowering to start over with a clean mental and emotional state.

Another thing of note it my grotesquely overindulgent lifestyle before is under some radical change here at the inciHouse of radical self reliance. I am having to learn how to implement the five levels of  recycling into my habits, and also being exposed to a mostly vegan/organic house. More to come on both of these subjects later.

For now I am off to run errands and cross things off my to do list... and this was one of them.

100 More Miles Until I Pass Go

I have always said life is very much like a monopoly board; and on my board right now there is only 100 more miles until I pass go.

The truck is packed, the turtles and kid are ready to go, and its about time to head out on our journey to Tucson. Its really hot out today, and Im a little worried that it might be hard on the truck and tires, but I have put the trip off long enough already. Nothing is changing here and its time for us to go. The kid's dad is going to check all the fluids for the trip and saying goodbye to Bubba. I am saying goodbye to my dad and then me and my boy are hitting the road.

Its only 100 miles. Its only about 2 hours. Its only my new life. My new home. My new beginning. My time is now. The next time I write, I will be right where I need to be.

Ending My Return To Saturn And Moving On

I am not exactly sure where I am going at the moment. I don't find this surprising in the least and neither does anyone who knows me at all. Over the past 18 months or so I have gone through a lot of change. I had my return to Saturn, which was a little harder than I expected and finally ended this weekend. I lot a boy I loved. My daughter grew up and moved out. I made some stupid decisions. I lost everything I owned. I found the bottom of my sole.  

Enough about that. I attended an event this weekend that was almost a year in the making. I experienced things this weekend that most normal people cant even dream about. I danced in the Thunderdome, spun fire hoop for the Death Guild,  cleaned an area of desert that had been neglected, endured harsh temperatures without complaint, and made peace with some of my own inner demons. I met amazing people, spent time with friends that I am going to miss and thoroughly enjoyed everything the universe had to offer me.

I had no idea that my return to Saturn would end abruptly on this note after such an amazing weekend. But sure as shit, I got home and read my horoscope only to find that it ended with Just Another Desert Party. Fitting, ironic, coincidental and mysterious, it makes sense in its own romantic way.

So here I sit, quite impatiently, ready to put my new plan of action into motion. I decided a few weeks before Just Another Desert Party that I was going to move to Tucson with my best friend. My situation in the valley sucks at the moment, I have had a serious lack of relationships to fulfill my life, and I just generally know I need to get away.

My truck is packed. My whole life is in there. OMG my entire life fits into a Nissan Pathfinder. Tomorrow I leave to embark on the new chapter. I dont know what makes me think it will be different, I just feel it somehow. I think my intuition is finally right about something. Hopefully.

There are certain things I am going to vow to do right now in the next chapter of life.

First thing is blog-often.
Second thing is Squidoo-every single day.
Third-hoop every single day
Fourth- improve financial life.
Fifth - improve my life

Maybe in that order...maybe not. But I am not returning to the valley without having checked all these things off my list.

Lastly, I have something to say to that boy. He knows who he is. I love you with all my stupid, broken little heart. I hope you come home someday. I hope we can be at peace someday. I hope you figure out what you want someday. Good luck on all the adventures you have until then and please dont forget about me.

I <3 Hooping

so much that I made a review page about my friends LED hoops, and his website. If you love hooping, LEDs, or me...check out my site, and his. The Best LED Hoops
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Forever wishful thinking

I wish it could have been today. I mean it still could be...but its getting late. Hopefully it will be tomorrow. always waiting. sitting, waiting, wishing. For absolutely anything to happen.

Jack Johnson always gets it right.

I'm Feeling This

or am I? I cant seem to figure out what is really going on with me other than crap ton of anxiety. such is life I guess. Just wanted to vent about my lack of or overwhelming presence of emotion I have at any given moment lately.

Being alone sucks.

Thank god the man burned.

How to Build Your Own Website

My Newest Masterpiece! Remember how I blogged about Squidoo a while back...Well I finally finished exploring and this is what I came up with. Squidoo Freakin Rocks. You have to go check it out for yourself. Its such a great opportunity, especially if you are in school. Imagine turning all your research papers into Squidoo lens' with relevant products for sale, backed by the SEO strategies of the big dogs at Squidoo to get your lens out there! It does not get better than this.

The greatest part of Squidoo is that you actually get paid for your content and the revenue it makes. So basically, Squidoo wants people to see your lens' so that they can make money. And when they make money you make money. The split is 50/50 with the option to donate as much as you would like to the charity of your choice. I am absolutely amazed at this website. It is genius.

One more thing. It costs absolutely nothing to join. Absolutely nothing. They will never ask you for a penny. You just share in their revenue.

So I built my first lens. It will be directly linked to the website www.freesiteinfo.info

Look Forward to more cool lens' coming soon! Here is my first one. How to Build Your Own Website

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